“The program for this evening is not new. You’ve seen this entertainment through and through. You’ve seen your birth, your life and death. You might recall all the rest. Did you have a good world when you died? Enough to base a movie on?”

Jim Morrison

Yes, I was infatuated with you: I am still. No one has ever heightened such a keen capacity of physical sensation in me. I cut you out because I couldn’t stand being a passing fancy. Before I give my body, I must give my thoughts, my mind, my dreams. And you weren’t having any of those.

My heart stopped. It just stopped beating. And for the first time in my life, I had that feeling. You know, like the world is moving all around you, all beneath you, all inside you, and you’re floating. Floating in midair. And the only thing keeping you from drifting away is the other person’s eyes. They’re connected to yours by some invisible physical force, and they hold you fast while the rest of the world swirls and twirls and falls completely away.

I’ve never understood why looking hot had to be equated with sex and conquest. Whatever happened to anticipation, to courtship, to true love? Can’t a person look hot and not have it mean something? Call me an old-fashioned Naomi bitch, but I’m holding out for true love. Even if it’s an unattainable fantasy

I am proud that I defy your categories. I am proud that I don’t fit easily into any box. I am proud of all the things I am and all the things i can be. Question yourself every time you think you only see one thing in me.

people moving all the time
inside a perfectly straight line
don’t you want to curve away?
when it’s such, it’s such a perfect day
~ coldplay ~

 

2 thoughts on “

  1. Thank you for this beautiful honest blog.
    it means so much you probably have no idea, what these little fragments do out in the world, but they do help. Here is one person they help, and this one can’t be the only one.

    Bless you

    John

    • John, your words are so beautiful. They help me, they keep me going, and I can’t thank you in any other way than by doing this for you. I only hope I continue to make you feel this way forever. Many many blessings for you!!

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