If you have had a close person die or commit suicide, this is for you: the stairway to heaven.
You know, after my mom died, everybody told me that I was gonna be ok, that it would take a little time, but I would heal. Well, that didn’t ever happen; not really anyway…what you’re feeling right now Amy, it doesn’t ever really go away – not completely. It’s not like, ya know, you’re gonna go back to being the person you were before they died – the person’s gone. It’s more like something inside of you breaks and your body finds a way to compensate for it. Like if you busted your right hand, you figure out how to use the left one. And sure, you might resist for a while because you’re pissed off that you have to learn all this stuff again that nobody else does. Eventually your body takes over and figures it out for you, and you’re glad, because if it was up to you…you’d look at your broken hand forever and try to figure out what it was like before.