We are all alone, born alone, die alone, and — in spite of True Romance magazines — we shall all someday look back on our lives and see that, in spite of our company, we were alone the whole way. I do not say lonely — at least, not all the time — but essentially, and finally, alone. This is what makes your self-respect so important, and I don’t see how you can respect yourself if you must look in the hearts and minds of others for your happiness.

“There is a certain magic that happens this time of year.  Our bodies long to start the hibernation process.  Days get shorter, and the darkness returns.  We eat more, and stay at home more, snuggling under blankets, longing to stay in bed until the brightness of the day fills our room, which is long past the time we should be awakening.” – Stephanie, Still Life With Mia

I wish I was a photograph
tucked into the corners of your wallet
I wish I was a photograph
you carried like a future in your pocket
I wish I was that face you show to strangers
when they ask you where you come from
I wish I was that someone that you come from
every time you get there
and when you get there
I wish I was that someone who got phone calls
and postcards saying
wish you were here

I wish you were here
autumn is the hardest season
the leaves are all falling
and they’re falling like they’re falling in love with the ground
and the trees are naked and lonely
I keep trying to tell them
new leaves will come around in the spring
but you can’t tell trees those things
they’re like me they just stand there
and don’t listen

I wish you were here
I’ve been missing you like crazy
I’ve been hazy eyed
staring at the bottom of my glass again
thinking of that time when it was so full
it was like we were tapping the moon for moonshine
or sticking straws into the center of the sun
and sipping like icarus would forever kiss
the bullets from our guns

I never meant to fire you know
I know you never meant to fire lover
I know we never meant to hurt each other
now the sky clicks from black to blue
and dusk looks like a bruise
I’ve been wrapping one night stands
around my body like wedding bands
but none of them fit in the morning
they just slip off my fingers and slip out the door
and all that lingers is the scent of you
I once swore if I threw that scent into a wishing well
all the wishes in the world would come true
do you remember

do you remember the night I told you
I’ve never seen anything more perfect than
than snow falling in the glow of a street light
electricity bowing to nature
mind bowing to heartbeat
this is gonna hurt bowing to I love you
I still love you like moons love the planets they circle around
like children love recess bells
I still hear the sound of you
and think of playgrounds
where outcasts who stutter
beneath braces and bruises and acne
are finally learning that their rich handsome bullies
are never gonna grow up to be happy
I think of happy when I think of you

so wherever you are I hope you’re happy
I really do
I hope the stars are kissing your cheeks tonight
I hope you finally found a way to quit smoking
I hope your lungs are open and breathing your life
I hope there’s a kite in your hand
that’s flying all the way up to orion
and you still got a thousand yards of string to let out
I hope you’re smiling
like god is pulling at the corners of your mouth
cause I might be naked and lonely
shaking branches for bones
but I’m still time zones away
from who I was the day before we met
you were the first mile
where my heart broke a sweat
and I wish you were here
I wish you’d never left
but mostly I wish you well
I wish you my very very best

So many people are shut up tight inside themselves like boxes, yet they would open up, unfolding quite wonderfully, if only you were interested in them.

I know you have the spirit to fight this, the will to survive, and the heart to show everyone how it’s done. You can’t give up, I won’t let you. Let’s get healthy together. I love you more than you could ever know. The battle starts now. A quest for a new way of life, better than we ever imagined. Together, we will show the world our united strength.

We have no right to ask when sorrow comes, “Why did this happen to me?” unless we ask the same question for every moment of happiness that comes our way.

The most terrifying fact about the universe is not that it is hostile but that it is indifferent, but if we can come to terms with this indifference, then our existence as a species can have genuine meaning. However vast the darkness, we must supply our own light.

You are the strongest person I know, even if you don’t believe it yourself. I do.
Your strength comes from your pain, and in that strength there comes promise.
Promise that you will make it through this, promise that everything will be okay.

She found herself leaving, going away… where she would find another who she would claim to be love, and just as easily as she gave her love, she would take it away, over and over and over again. She was desperately trying to fill the void that was left in her heart, constantly telling herself that if she loved and was loved back, the ache would go away.

And she brought this on them. On him. Unknowingly, she tore his heart to pieces. She’d contaminated him with the same ache that lived inside of her. She knew she would leave his questions unanswered, she knew he’d hurt. But nothing mattered to her except finding the match to her heart. Because if she was okay, everything would fall into place.

i am in this world, but not of it.

i am in this world, but not of it.

i am in this world, but not of it.

and i will be okay.

no matter what, i will be okay.

Phone up the people you miss and tell them you love them. Hug those close to you as hard as you can. Because you are always only a drunk driver’s stupidity, a nervous shopkeeper’s mistake, a doctor’s best attempts and an old age away from forever.

When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed.
They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually. They may seem like a godsend and they are.
They are there for the reason you need them to be.
Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end.
Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away.
Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand.
What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled, their work is done.

At the beach, life is different. Time doesn’t move hour to hour but mood to moment.

We live by the currents, plan by the tides, and follow the sun.

Life is like a mirror, we get the best results when we smile at it.

Life isn’t fair. Few people deserve what they get; some get more than they deserve, while others get less. But I must remind myself, what right do I have to judge others? People get what they get. C’est la vie.

There’s someone who cries while you smile, one who suffers while you enjoy & one who’s dying while you’re living. Appreciate life.

It’s all right

RIP: The two-year-old girl from Foshan, China, who was left for dead on the street after a double hit-and-run, has passed away.

The hospital where Yueyue had been under intensive care for the last seven days announced the sad news at a press briefing this morning.

CCTV footage showing over a dozen people ignoring the critically wounded toddler enraged the Chinese public, sparking heated discussions about morality and community. The topic remains a popular one on the country’s social networks.

Heartbreaking Tearjerker: Gordon Yeager, 94, and his wife Norma, 90, lived together for 72 years. Last week, after a tragic car accident, they died together, one hour apart, holding hands.

The couple got married in 1939, the day Norma graduated from high school. They lived their whole lives in the small town of State Center, Iowa, where they raised four children.

“Staying together for 72 years is good, I’d say that’s exceptional,” daughter Donna Sheets said. “They always did everything together. They weren’t apart. They just weren’t.”

True to their nature, the Yeagers were together last Wednesday at the intersection of Highway 30 and Jessup Avenue outside Marshalltown, where their car struck another car head on. They were brought into the ICU ofMarshalltown’s hospital together, holding hands.

Gordon passed away shortly thereafter.

“It was really strange, they were holding hands, and dad stopped breathing but I couldn’t figure out what was going on because the heart monitor was still going,” son Dennis Yeager told KCCI. “But we were like, he isn’t breathing. How does he still have a heart beat? The nurse checked and said that’s because they were holding hands and it’s going through them. Her heart was beating through him and picking it up.” Norma passed away an hour later.

“Neither one of them would’ve wanted to be without each other,” said Sheets. Added Yeager: “They just loved being together.”

‘Al Jazeera sources now claim the fugitive Colonel has been killed. Earlier NTC said Gaddafi has been captured and wounded in both legs, quoting an NTC official.

Al Jazeera sources now claim the fugitive Colonel has been killed. The NTC says it will provide confirmation of Gaddafi’s capture within hours.

But according to Reuters, Gaddafi was wounded and captured near Sirte upon trying to flee in a convoy which was attacked by NATO. NATO official says the Alliance is checking reports of Gadhafi’s capture.

A Libyan government fighter says Gaddafi was hiding in a hole in Sirte, shouting”don’t shoot, don’t shoot”

An NTC official says the head of Gaddafi’s armed forces, Abu Bakr Younus Jabr, was killed during the capture of the Libyan ex-leader

Russia’s President Dmitry Medvedev has commented on the alleged capture of the former Libyan leader, saying that “Libyan people are to decide his fate.”

“We expect that there will be peace in Libya, and those who govern the state, will agree on the system of government,” Medvedev added.

The news come shortly after tne NTC forces took control over Gaddafi’s home town of Sirte.’

Warning: this is video of Muammar Gaddafi’s corpse being kicked through the streets of Sirte. We’re posting it because at this point, it’s a video asset in the history books.

This video is super-graphic. But it also confirms, beyond a shadow of a doubt, that it’s him. Wow.

Apple closed its retail stores yesterday so that thousands of employees could pay tribute to Steve Jobs in a broadcast memorial. Apple CEO Tim Cook and former Vice-President Al Gore both spoke at the memorial. And shortly after Norah Jones and Coldplay performed, Coldplay frontman Chris Martin told the crowd to get back to work, because that’s what Steve would have wanted.

Some people are calling Apple’s new iPhone 4S disappointing, but Tech Editor Peter Ha says there’s way more than meets the eye.

Every facet of the camera has been improved, from start-up to white balance to rapid-fire shooting. With iOS 5, you can double-tap the home button while on the lock screen for a shortcut to the camera app, and you can edit images without the need for a third-party app. You’ll no longer have to sit and wait for the iris to open before snapping a photo. Face detection (for up to 10 faces) has been implemented into the 4S, and it works fairly well. Image quality has improved, with better exposure, white balance and low-light performance. There are far less noise, aberrations and over-exposure overall.

You can now capture full 1080p video from your iPhone. Image stabilization ensures that your shaky hands won’t ruin the moment, and the same noise cancellation that’s used for phone calls makes captured audio crystal clear.

…but you’re right, there’s probably no way we could cut that defense budget.


Shark “Massacres” Happen Every Day…We Just Don’t Hear About It

by Scott Henderson

Earlier this week, MSNBC reported a shark “massacre” in which hundreds of sharks were found dead aboard a fishing vessel captured while fishing illegally in the Galápagos Marine Reserve. Scott Henderson, director of Conservation International’s Eastern Tropical Pacific Seascape program and shark expert, responds.

I’ve … had the unfortunate experience of watching shark populations decline, mostly due to overfishing and illegal fishing in protected areas. However, thanks to improved policies to reduce shark fishing, better enforcement capacity through a state-of-the-art Vessel Monitoring System, and growing political commitment in Ecuador to control the hemorrhage of shark products — especially fins destined for the lucrative Chinese market — shark fishing in the Galápagos Marine Reserve has been greatly reduced in the past few years.

Which is why news of last week’s “shark massacre” has come as such an unsettling surprise.

To my mind, the newsworthy item in this story is not that a vessel ‘massacred’ some 380 sharks, as this sort of thing happens every day — around the clock, in all oceans, by vessels of nearly every seagoing nation in the world, including the United States…

(read more: Conservation International)

It seems that Adam Levine, lead singer of Maroon 5, does not care for Fox News and would prefer if they didn’t play his music ever again. At least, that appears to be what he meant when hetweeted, “Dear Fox News, don’t play our music on your evil f—— channel ever again. Thank you.”

It isn’t clear what prompted him to send out the message but it isn’t the first time he’s attacked an entire network via Twitter.

Just this past August, Levine tweeted about his dissatisfaction with MTV, stating that they don’t actually care about music anymore. He seems to enjoy dropping the F-bomb at television networks.

Hopefully, Fox news will heed Levine’s warning, otherwise he may have to send a harshly worded letter.

Tom Boddingham is the proud owner of a brand new monster’s paw-shaped bed. One problem, though: He ordered a slipper.

Boddingham says the Chinese company that manufactures the slipper missed the decimal point in his custom order: He wanted a size 14.5 left, but got a size 1,450 instead.

“It was sent directly from Hong Kong and measures 210 x 130 x 65cms – the same length as a grizzly bear or a family car,” the 27-year-old from Ilford, East London, is quoted as saying. “I reckon I must be the owner of the biggest slipper in the world.”

The company has since apologized to Boddingham, and promised to send him a replacement slipper. Asked why the request for a XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXL monster’s paw didn’t raise any flags, a spokesman said the employees thought it was meant as a prop for a window display.

If your child is under 2, stop letting them watch TV. A new report from the American Academy of Pediatrics says TV or videos can harm an infant’s development, even delay the ability to speak.

Instead of allowing infants to passively watch moving images, parents should talk to them and encourage independent play, the AAP said.

The guidelines were needed because of the proliferation of DVDs targeted at the under-2 age group, said Dr. Ari Brown, a pediatrician in Austin, Texas, who is a member of the academy and the lead author of the report. He said an example is the Disney-owned “Baby Einstein” collection, which includes titles such as “Baby Van Gogh: World of Colors” and “Baby Beethoven Symphony of Fun.”

Children under 2 are too young to be able to understand the images on the screen, even if they’re from so-called educational videos, the report said.

We tested the iPhone 4S for speed on all three carriers — AT&T, Sprint, and Verizon Wireless — and the result was clear: AT&T offers the fastest, most consistent network speeds.




had to reblog this again, it’s just so adorable

“What I think about vivisection is that if people admit that they have the right to take or endanger the life of living beings for the benefit of many, there will be no limit to their cruelty.” ~Leo Tolstoy

They have feelings too.

You say what I do is great, amazing, inspiring, and even allow the word heroic to leave your lips. But, you are wrong.
My actions aren’t nice…they’re necessary.
You say you can’t give. You can’t afford it. But can your conscience afford not to?
Take away everything you own, and you will be bankrupt. But you will still be better off than the people starving in Africa.
How much would you spend for a night out or a dinner? Skip it and donate the money.
Every little bit helps. It’s the least we can do.
Spread love. Human beings are dying on the streets…your happy hour and new gadget can wait.
I know you. The generosity in your heart. I can see it in your eyes.
Please give… for the world, and for the health of your own heart.

Donate Now to Your Favorite Charities

Slow suicide. That’s what we do.

Real pain & suffering has a face.

And not the face you have when you can’t buy the shirt you want.

Fun Fact: that is the band Phoenix, and the man handing Marie Antoinette, Kirsten Dunst, the rose is Sofia Coppola’s husband Thomas Mars

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A study published in the Environmental Health Perspective journal reveals the FDA approved the sale of seafood tainted with petroleum.

After the worst oil spill in history occurred off the coast of Louisiana in 2010, sea life in the area became contaminated with toxic petroleum. The FDA was tasked with keeping a close eye on seafood coming from Gulf waters. Disturbingly, much of what has been caught and approved for sale by the FDA contained 10,000 times the healthy limit of petroleum contaminants. Contaminated products were approved for sale because the FDA inspection system is a severely flawed.

The FDA seafood inspection process is referred to as the “sniff test” and inspectors check the seafood for petroleum contaminants by smelling the product. This latest study however reveals that the sniff test, while effective at detecting some contaminants, fails to detect those that are odorless. Researchers found that 100% of the Gulf shrimp and fish had petroleum deposits in their digestive tracts.

The FDA has yet to comment on the latest research and has always insisted that Gulf seafood is safe. For now, seafood can eaters rest assured that somewhere, someone from the FDA has smelled your clams. You’re welcome.

“You do not have time to cry. You do not have time to feel. You basically put those feelings in a box and put them over here on a counter.”

Meet the angels of Iraq and Afghanistan: the nurses, doctors and pilots who save lives and evacuate wounded soldiers from harm’s way.

With the annual CFDA/ Vogue Fashion Fund Awards gala coming up in November, Vogue.com decided to launch the web series, ”The Fund”. It will take a look at the journey of the up-and-coming designers who are in the running to receive the most anticipated (and arguably most influential) prize of the night – The CDFA/Vogue Fashion Fund Award (aka any emerging designers dream). This looks like it’s going to be an amazing series. Take a look above.

 BAMF of the Day: With a finish time of eight hours and 25 minutes, 100-year-old Indian-born Brit Fauja Singh completed yesterday’s Toronto Waterfront marathon to become the oldest person ever to run a full marathon.

Singh was nearly forced to quit at the 35 kilometer mark, but pushed through the pain, and eventually bested his own personal goal.

More remarkable still, Singh took up running only 20 years ago, and has been running some 16 kilometers every day since.

I guess it’s true what they say: You’re only as old as you run.

Watch Singh cross the finish line below:

23-year-old Brazilian skater Italo Fernandes Romano may not have legs, but he has something a lot of people lack: The ability to overcome his shortcomings.

The Curitiba native lost his lower limbs at 13 when he fell while playing with his friends on a moving train. Romano refused to let the accident define him, and soon proved that even as half a man he’s twice the skater many professionals are.

the house of books made entirely of antique books, mostly english literature published in the United Kingdom – by Janet Cardiff and George Bures Miller

A model’s foot at the Louis Vuitton runway show in Paris, one of the last shows of fashion month. (via Styleite)

Now imagine your feet were shoved into a different pair of heels five times a day, none of which fit you because who cares? Now imagine doing that every day for a month. Are you done imagining? Good. Because this is what your feet would look like. Modeling’s not the hardest job in the world, but it certainly isn’t easy.

Nervous drivers (and their equally nervous passengers) beware! You should really prepare yourselves for the sight of Storseisundet Bridge in Norway. The road connection from the mainland Romsdal peninsula to the island of Averøya in Møre og Romsdal county doesn’t look as if it actually connects as you drive towards it. In fact it looks very much as if you are in for an icy bath as you plummet off its 23 meters height.

However, you will be relieved to hear that this is simply something of an optical illusion. The bridge is built in such a way that from a certain angle, as you approach, it looks as it is more diving board than bridge. Known locally as the drunk bridge it forms part of the Atlantergavsveien or Atlantic Ocean Road in English and attracts many a curious visitor.

iPhone 5: According to one analyst, the eventual release of the iPhone 5 might be a bigger deal than expected, because it’s the last Apple product Steve Jobs was intimately involved in creating.

A source confirmed that information to CNET, saying, “This is a very large project that Steve dedicated all of his time to. He was not that involved in the 4S because his time was limited.”

The phone will reportedly deliver the “complete redesign” Apple fans were anticipating this year, along with a larger display and 4G capabilities.

It’s now expected out in June of next year, around the time of Apple’s Developer Conference.

Sad News: Giuliana Rancic, the E! News host, revealed this morning on the Today Show that she has been diagnosed with breast cancer.

Rancic was in her third round of in-vitro fertilization when her doctor suggested a mammogram and the tumor was found. The 36-year-old said she hadn’t intended on getting a mammogram until she was 40.

The reality TV star and Fashion Police co-host, who has chronicled her attempts to get pregnant on her reality show Giulana & Bill, will have surgery this week with a month and a half of radiation therapy to follow. Rancic says the prognosis is good because the disease was found early.

She told Ann Curry on the Today Show:

I still want this baby … because this baby has saved my life. I truly feel God was looking out after me … If I had gotten pregnant later down the line, I could have been a lot sicker.

Rancic also says her husband has been “unbelievable. The best thing about Bill is, he lets me cry when I want to cry.”

She also shared a message with other women:

A lot of us think we’re invincible … but we have to start putting ourselves on the to-do list. I had a friend call me yesterday, and she said, ‘I’m so sorry, can I do anything for you?’ And I said, ‘Just call your doctor tomorrow and make an appointment. That’s what you could do for me.’ … I will be okay because I found it early.

More than 1,800 protesters have been arrested in the U.S. since Occupy Wall Street demonstrations began one month ago. New York City has by far the most arrests, with at least 948, followed by 246 in Chicago, 169 in Boston, and 46 in Phoenix. Some more stats:

Began: Sept. 17
Arrests: 948
Peak campers: 400

Began: Sept. 23
Arrests: 246
Peak campers: 500

Began: Sept. 30
Arrests: 169
Peak campers: 450

Began: Sept. 19
Arrests: 18
Peak campers: 200 

Began: Oct. 1
Arrests: 40
Peak campers: 250

This isn’t a sci-fi movie set; it’s the world’s first commercial spaceport, and it was dedicated in New Mexico today.

The $209 million facility, financed by both Virgin and New Mexico, will house Virgin Galactic’s two spacecraft, mission control and what is sure to be a swanky waiting area for those preparing to liftoff.

Branson once predicted Virgin would take its first flight to space in 2007 but that goal has been pushed back. Now he expects test flights to begin next year. Soon after, the WhiteKnightTwo will begin taking the 455 people who have purchased $200,000 tickets into the sky for the most expensive 2.5 hours of their lives.

“It’s funny how fickle fame can be. One week Steve Jobs dies and his death tops the news agenda. Just over a week later, Dennis Ritchie dies and nobody — except for a few geeks — notices. And yet his work touched the lives of far more people than anything Steve Jobs ever did. In fact if you’re reading this online then the chances are that the router which connects you to the internet is running a descendant of the software that Ritchie and his colleague Ken Thompson created in 1969.

The software is an operating system called Unix and the record of how it achieved its current unacknowledged dominance is one of the great untold stories of our time. It emerged from Bell Labs — the R&D facility of AT&T, the lightly regulated monopoly that ran the US telephone network for generations.

Dennis Ritchie and Ken Thompson were two bright Bell programmers who had been assigned to work with MIT on the design of a complex multi-user operating systemn – Multics. In the end, the plug was pulled on the project, with the result that Bell Labs found itself with two pissed-off hackers on its books. Back in the lab, Ritchie and Thompson decided that they would just have to build the operating system themselves. So, in a fantastic burst of creativity they wrote Unics. Inevitably the ‘cs’ became ‘x’ and Unix was born.

Thus did AT&T find itself the astonished proprietor of a uniquely powerful and innovative operating system. The problem was that it couldn’t sell it, because under the Consent Decree that gave it the telephone monopoly AT&T was not allowed to be in the computer business. So the researchers in Bell Labs did what geeks do – they gave it away to their peers in university research labs.

In doing this Ritchie and Thompson unwittingly launched the academic discipline of computer science, because universities were able to give their students free yet powerful software. Geeks were free to modify and improve on this — which is what Bill Joy and his fellow students at Berkeley did when they created their own version of Unix, called BSD for Berkeley Software Distribution.

The neatest twist of all, however, involves Apple. OS X — the operating system that now powers every Apple product — is actually built on the Berkeley distribution of Unix, so if you hack into your iPhone what you’ll find is BSD 4.2. You could say, therefore, that what Apple really did was to give Unix a pretty face.”

The Economic Times, “Dennis Ritchie: The Man Who Created Unix.”

Ritchie was found dead in his Berkley Heights, NJ home last week;according to the New York Times, he had been in frail health following treatment for prostate cancer and heart disease.  He was 70 years old.

Sometimes a person or the people who develop game-changing software and devices become heralded around the world for their inventions, their names never to be forgotten by the masses.

Sometimes, the great work that some people do goes relatively unnoticed by those same masses, and their names are sadly forgotten, despite their achievements touching the lives of billions.

Thanks, Dennis.

But I don’t want comfort. I want poetry. I want danger. I want freedom. I want goodness. I want sin. – Aldous Huxley

Let me give you some free advice. She’s a runner for sure- she’ll run away every time without saying a word. But here’s the thing- you are not a runner. And deep down, I don’t think Norah wants to run, either. She’s just feels like she has to. Partly because she’s a tiresome spoiled-brat smartass with no fashion sense. And partly because she’s a fucking human being.

It’s like the people who believe they’ll be happy if they go and live somewhere else, but who learn it doesn’t work that way. Wherever you go, you take yourself with you. If you see what I mean.

When you have an emotional reaction to what you see, you are judging. That is your signal that you have an issue inside of yourself – with yourself – not with the other person. If you react to evil, look inside yourself for the very thing that so agitates you, and you will find it. If it were not there, you will simply discern, act appropriately, and move on.

“To laugh often and much; to win the respect of intelligent people and the affection of children…to leave the world a better place…to know even one life has breathed easier because you have lived. This is to have succeeded”

Ralph Waldo Emerson

“I finally figured out that I’m solitary by nature, but at the same time I know so many people; so many people think they own a piece of me. They shift and move under my skin, like a parade of memories that simply won’t go away. It doesn’t matter where I am, or how alone—I always have such a crowded head.”

Charles de Lint 

But what the evil people do, that’s their responsibility. The burden they have to carry. Sure, when we see ’em starting on causing some hurt, we’ve got to try and stop ’em, but mostly what the rest of us should be concerning ourselves with is doing right by others. Every time you do a good turn, you shine the light a little further into the dark. And the thing is, even when we’re gone, that light’s going to keep shining on, pushing the shadows back.

Not only do we all have magic, it’s all around us as well. We just don’t pay attention to it. Every time we make something out of nothing, that’s an act of magic. It doesn’t matter if it’s a painting or a garden, or an abuelo telling his grandchildren some tall tale. Every time we fix something that’s broken, whether it’s a car engine or a broken heart, that’s an act of magic.

And what makes it magic is that we *choose* to create or help, just as we can choose to harm. But it’s so easy to destroy and so much harder to make things better. That’s why doing the right thing makes you stronger.

If we can only remember what we are and what we can do, nobody can bind us or control us.

iPad Stand

I love this world. That is what rules my life. When I die, I want to have done all in my power to leave it in a better state than it was when I found it. At the same time I know that this can never be. The world has grown so complex that one voice can do little to alter it any longer. That doesn’t stop me from doing what I can, but it makes the task hard. The successes are so small, the failures so large and many. It’s like trying to stem a storm with one’s bare hands.

“you have to let yourself do stuff you’re not good at. don’t get hung up on what other people think about what you’re doing. dare to be a sucky skateboarder or a lousy video editor or a completely crappy golfer. if we do only the stuff we’re good at, we never learn anything new. think of all the great possibilities in life that pass by because we’re too chicken to explore them and risk looking like a loser. screw the haters who have nothing better to do than make fun of people who are brave enough to put themselves out there. get out of your comfort zone and go for it. you never know unless you try.”

— justin bieber

Emma Watson reveals the contents of her bag to Marie Claire

“There are only the pursued, the pursuing, the busy, and the tired.”

F. Scott Fitzgerald, The Great Gatsby 

Eric Cahan – Sky Series

Every day we go to school with hundreds of other students. We walk from class together, we attend pep rallies together, and we even have some of the same classes. Some of us are friends, some enemies, some unaware of each other’s existence.

But every day one, seven, fifteen, or even a hundred students feel worthless. Fifty students in your lunch period contemplate their lack of friends, while twenty four in your gym period wonder why nobody wants to be on their team. Two students in your journalism class write short stories based on the abandonment they face every day from their parents, and three about a time when they used to be loved.

When you notice someone walking through the halls with their headphones on, what song is playing? When someone in your science class spends the period ignoring the lesson, what are they thinking about? When your best friend comes to school in a daze for the third day in a row, what is really on her mind?

You think you’re the center of the universe. You think you know what it’s like to feel loss, fear, and sorrow. Nobody knows anybody else; she could be abused day after day by her uncle, and you would never know how it happened. That guy could wander the streets at night, searching for darkness or someone to hide with, and you would never know why he left his bed. A person could spend every day pasting a smile on their face, practicing a laugh that sounds real, and telling stories about their exciting weekend, but you would never know that every word and emotion is a lie.

We think we know our friends. We think we know our grade, our school, our generation. We think we know why people hate, and love, and hurt, and save, and murder, and die. The truth is, we’re only kids. And even if we weren’t, adults don’t know either.

Nobody knows anything, as hard as they try to figure it out. What I don’t understand, is why we can’t be afraid together. Why does one person’s pain have to be another person’s pleasure? Why are some people in the world so judgmental and unforgiving?

I don’t know who you are; I don’t even know your first name. What I do know, is that you’re human, and you’re trying to find your way in this world; maybe you’ve gotten your heart broken again and again, or you’ve gotten laughed at one too many times. Maybe your family doesn’t show you they care enough, or your friends don’t call you anymore. Maybe you’re just lonely, and tired, and frustrated, and desperate.

I want you to know, you’re not alone when you feel these things. There are currently 6 billion, 999 million, 999 thousand, 990 people in the world, and none of them are happy. They might be happy for a day, or a week, or even a month, but no one is indefinitely happy. Every person’s life has peaks, and valleys, canyons, and mountains.

What I’m trying to say is that it’s ok to feel badly about who you are, or who you used to be, or who you’re becoming. It’s ok to hate you parents, or your country, or society. It’s not ok to think, for one second, that you are the only one.

Next time you find yourself wanting to end your life, remember the 6,999,999,990 other people in the world, and how they feel exactly the same way; not every single one of them all in this moment, but most of them have at one point, or will in the future, or never got the chance to.

Whoever you are, we’re thinking of you. We’re happy you’re not lost forever, and that you will be given a second chance. Whoever you are, we’re sorry.